I'm beginning to realize that I am at that point in my life where I am no longer looking to that what if future scenario and instead just accepting reality for what it currently is and learning to live with it. For starters, I've recently come to grips with the fact that I'm not that smart; my 70% average in college proves that nicely. I'm not going to be some sort of brainiac smart kid who makes Asians look dumb, I'm just plain old me. And I'm ok with that. I no longer imagine myself being this top of the class student who gets a dream networking job right out of college, but rather that person who will probably finish more or less the same as I'm currently doing now, and then have to wait who knows how long, get a job that pays the bills, and that'd be it. Which that kinda segways into the next thing I've learned to accept; being alone. I know, you're probably thinking "oh, he's just feeling sorry for himself" or something, but in reality, it is true, and there is a difference between feeling sorry for one's self and accepting reality. It is unrealistic at this point in time to think that I'll be something more than what I am now. I've learned to accept that I probably won't have a significant other, get married, and have kids. In order for that to happen, it would mean that some single girl would have to actually want to be around me (which that list sits at 0), be willing to at least accept my oddball nerdyness and gaming being my main pastime. And then on top of that they'd actually be willing to be around that all the time. That's not going to happen. I've learned to simply accept that it is what it is, and I'm leaving it at that.
I'm ok with the idea of having an average job and just having myself to look out for.
